Well, this is awkward…

So, the hiatus is over, and summer is dwindling. I missed you all dearly, but staying away from social media for a few months has been FANTASTIC. I can’t wait to hear about everyone’s summer vacation. But the thing is…
Well…
You’re probably going to find this strange, and I can’t really explain it either, all I know is that I learned a lot about myself in the past few months, and the times they are a changing.
The only thing I can say is, as of very soon, this blog will no longer exist. You can hop over to my new blog Running Into 30 and decide if you still want to be my friend or not. I promise, it’s the same old Martha, only now I also like to run as well as lift.
I hope everyone comes along for the ride, because I love you all so much. And now that I’m back in the swing of things, I promise to get back to commenting on and sharing all the wonderful things you, my bloggy buddies, have to offer.
Thank you again for sticking with me this far, and I hope you will all be a part of my future.
XO and goodbye for now –
Martha

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The Next Hundred Days

Today is an exciting one for me in that I’m making a “bold” decision that will greatly improve my life. Tonight marks my “hundred day hiatus” from social media. For the next 3 months of my life I am recklessly abandoning my blog, Facebook, and twitter in favor of a simpler and ideally more satisfying lifestyle.
Have you ever woken up from a seemingly long run of days to realize you are just going through the motions instead of actually enjoying how incredible your own personal world is? My constant connection to social media has put me in a state of such consternation with everyone else’s lives that I feel like I’m pulling away from my own realities. While it’s nice to put your own issues on the back burner and peek into someone else’s train wreck, or connect with others who have similar interests that you might not otherwise meet in your daily life, I feel as though these acts of escapism are holding me back from living my own life.
Blog stats, twitter followers, ambassador acceptances – these are all flattering, but so is knowing I have people in my life who choose to be there no matter what I’m going through. I think about summers past, way back in the day before even AIM or ICQ, and how much fun it was to just “hang out.” Play, read, bike, camp, write in a journal just for the hell of it – actually allow yourself the opportunity to “be bored” – I want to reclaim that aspect of my life this summer (besides my obvious adult obligations, and training! And racing!)
So while I am absolutely not knocking anyone’s involvement in the blogging community, nor am I regretting or rescinding any of the wonderful things that have come from my participation (namely the amazing friendships!) this is my summer swan song. I need to live my own life in real time, do everything I can get my hands on without that little switch in my mind flipping and saying “I need to blog about this!” or “this should be tweeted.” I want simplicity, doing things for their inherent enjoyment, not their anticipated outcome. I need to work on my “real life human interaction” – I cannot shake this guilt of incessantly taking time away from my fiancé, my family, and friends to try and grow and captivate an online network.
That’s about as much as I want to divulge about this decision at the moment. Maybe a hundred days from now I will be right back where I am today, or maybe I will find the contentment I am seeking with the resources that are right in front of my face.
I’m not going into hiding. Obviously if you have my phone number you can call me or text me. Email is fair game too as I need to use it for work. I like handwritten letters, and you can probably expect a few from me too, because I genuinely care about all of you who have entered my world and stayed there. Plus I’m still dying to know about everyone’s triumphs to come in the next few weeks (ahem, Tammy), and don’t think I’m backing out of Mudder either (you’re not off the hook just yet ladies!🙂 )
Just know that this is not you guys, it’s all me (we aren’t breaking up, I swear!), and my desire to expand my organic, tangible everyday world. To start thinking in terms of ideas and feelings and not just pounds and calories. So I go forth blissfully into my summer of social media silence, and I can’t wait to see what comes from it. Keep in touch – don’t forget about me – I know my life will never be the same since knowing all of you!

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Ready for Respite.

This old girl is ready for a vacation. Without going into every exacerbating detail, work yesterday was simply exhausting, we sold a record amount of food, and I was on my feet at least 14 out of the 16 hours of my day.
The bar business is a blast, don’t get me wrong, but some Saturday mornings I wake up and don’t know how I’m going to physically get through another day. Weekends obviously are our time to shine, make money, and throw amazing parties, but I will admit sometimes the motto “fake it til you make it” is my mantra, and I just have to diesel tank my ass through the longest days.

In February, when our intern went back to school, we made the idiotic executive decision to not fill his kitchen manager position immediately. The rationale was we could save some money by doing it ourselves as we had in the past, get caught up on some bills, and hold off on training someone that wouldn’t be a perfect fit. Though the extra finances have been nice, I am pretty run down at the moment. When we made this decision, we hadn’t taken into account that our business has grown exponentially in the past 3 years, we now have our own house to take care of, and my father in law (who holds down the morning shift) was going to be out at least a month for surgery. In hind site, we bit off a little more than we should have, but we always do, and that’s why our business thrives and moves forward every day.

I get all my college helpers back starting next weekend, which means party time!! I can start working on aspects of my business that I love including menu development, customer service, advertising, and I will also have more time off than a half day every 3 months or so. This makes me so pumped but I am surely counting down the days at the moment.

Some cool stuff happened this week at the bar – we were mentioned in North Hills Monthly, which is really exciting for me, because I’m originally from the Pittsburgh area so getting a little love from there makes me proud that my bar isn’t just good for my town, but good in general!

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I decided to feature weekend specials based on stuff I like to eat, and it went over better than I anticipated:

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sweet and spicy salmon – I can’t get enough of this lately!

Even through chaotic times at work, and less than ideal training circumstances, I definitely make staying on a healthy path a main priority. Eating mindfully has kept my immune system from tanking, taking the time to take care of my body has given me an outlet for my anxiety as well as something to look forward to. I cannot stress enough how much making a healthy lifestyle second nature has improved every aspect of my life. I know if I was eating like crap, drinking regularly, and being sedentary in all my down time, I would not be able to give my business the attention it deserves, lead my staff to excel at their jobs, or respect myself enough to confidently weather anything the restaurant business has to throw at me.

That’s why for my training today I did something nice for myself. After a long day on your feet, the morning after aches and pains can translate into a really shitty day. I treated myself to an hour of gentle yoga, and I definitely have no regrets about it, because I’m definitely good to tackle whatever happens between now and 5am.

I am going to live vicariously through you all today, because my time will be spent at work, so tell me something fun you’re getting into if you so desire. Happy Saturday!

Reward Based Running

First, a confession. Today I had oatmeal for breakfast.

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It was totally everything I hoped and dreamed it would be.

Anyway, my chosen workout today was a 4 mile trail run. I generally don’t like to do my “long” runs the day after lifting, but being tomorrow is the start of spring gobbler season, I don’t want to be running around in the woods while folks are trying to hunt. Especially opening day. So I set off for my wilderness release this morning, the weather was gorgeous, my legs felt surprisingly fresh, and I got my 4 miles in in under 50 minutes, and considering the terrain, I’m totally cool with that.

Trail running is one of the most liberating activities I’ve ever practiced. It requires full body mindfulness, no plugging in the headphones and just pounding away at pavement, no zoning off, you have to be in tune with your surroundings at all times.

This is good for me because I’m a lazy ass rewards motivated person. I don’t like to get out of bed in the morning unless I’m getting paid, be it in cash, accomplishment, or opportunity. I will admit, road running and hitting a PR is fun and all, but it is nothing like the “payment” I get when I’m running a trail.

I am motivated by interesting sights like big fucking rocks (or Pennsylvania sex stones, as we call them):

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and small bubbling brooks:

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I would rather climb giant hills to witness this, than say stick to the flat road and see drug deals on the street corner.

I am motivated by the fear and excitement elicited by being in an environment shared by animals that could actually kill me if they wanted to. I would rather outrun a bear than that homeless guy who follows me around on his bicycle and asks me for cigarettes.

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I like that I can trudge up a mountain slowly knowing I’m saving my strength for an instance where I might actually need it, and to regain speed I can sprint across lakes and float down hills.

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I like that the shortest distance between two points is a straight line, and if that means getting knee deep in a mud puddle, so be it.

It’s fun, it’s cathartic, and the stumps, stones, and sounds are all a constant reminder to take it one step at a time, slow down when you need to, and go fast when you feel it.

I’m definitely inspired by my new undertaking and the rewards I’ve been reaping from it, be it in awesome photo ops, newfound confidence in my strength and abilities, and something that meshes amazingly with my love to lift and gives me my coveted “outdoor time” that protects my sanity.

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